RYLAN Clark has admitted that his drinking was "out of control" amid his divorce from his husband of six years, Dan Neal.
He also revealed that he begged for Dan to return home - but hasn't seen him since.
Clark previously spoke about his health issues that arose from the divorce on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast.
"My body did completely shut down and I wouldn’t eat," he said.
"I went through a stage where I couldn’t even talk, which for some people might be quite handy.
“My speech was just slurred. My mum thought I was having a stroke. My body just went. I went down to 9st and I am six-foot-four.”
The TV star has also recently put pen to paper in a new book, Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future.
It chronicles his life from finding fame on The X Factor in 2012 up until now.
You're Not Alone
EVERY 90 minutes in the UK a life is lost to suicide.
It doesn't discriminate, touching the lives of people in every corner of society - from the homeless and unemployed to builders and doctors, reality stars and footballers.
It's the biggest killer of people under the age of 35, more deadly than cancer and car crashes.
And men are three times more likely to take their own life than women.
Yet it's rarely spoken of, a taboo that threatens to continue its deadly rampage unless we all stop and take notice, now.
That is why The Sun launched the You're Not Alone campaign.
The aim is that by sharing practical advice, raising awareness and breaking down the barriers people face when talking about their mental health, we can all do our bit to help save lives.
Let's all vow to ask for help when we need it, and listen out for others... You're Not Alone.
If you, or anyone you know, needs help dealing with mental health problems, the following organisations provide support:
- CALM, www.thecalmzone.net, 0800 585 858
- Heads Together, www.headstogether.org.uk
- Mind, www.mind.org.uk, 0300 123 3393
- Papyrus, www.papyrus-uk.org, 0800 068 41 41
- Samaritans, www.samaritans.org, 116 123
- Movember, www.uk.movember.com
- Anxiety UK www.anxietyuk.org.uk, 03444 775 774 Monday-Friday 9.30am-10pm, Saturday/Sunday 10am-8pm
And for the first time, he details the reasons for the end of his marriage, admitting he had cheated "years ago" - but only told Dan last year.
He writes: "I woke up one morning and decided to tell my now ex that I had cheated on him, years ago.
"I’m not sure why it was that time, or that day I had to do it. But I did."
Rylan said he then went into "self blame" mode and felt his life was over and spent time hiding at his mum's house.
Most read in Showbiz
He writes: "And for the first time in thirty two years I felt I couldn't carry on no more. What's the point I thought.
"I'd lost what I thought was everything, the one thing I always wanted. A man I loved. A family of my own. And now it was gone. And so I tried to end it."
If you are affected by any of the issues raised in this article, please call the Samaritans for free on 116123.